CHAPTER 4

LIVING IN THE COUNTRY cont..


Midi: I Fall To Pieces
By Don Carroll


1982- Gaston was admitted to the hospital for reconstruction of the right side of his neck. He was in surgery for over 5 hours. He spent 3 weeks there, then came home awaiting for the second surgery.

I was only 34 yrs old and I already had arthritis, specially in my lower back. On top of my right foot I had a big hard lump, and some days I could barely walk, it hurt so bad. I went to see an orthopedist and he told me that the lump was from when I got stomped on the foot, a while back. I had to be admitted in the hospital, to get it removed before it got any bigger. I was in the hospital for 2-3 days. I had to wear a foot brace and use crutches for 6 weeks.

1982- Gaston went in for his second surgery, on the other side of his neck. It went as well as the first one did. It was around this time that I met a very nice English lady, she had just started raising dairy goats and we became friends right away. I thought she had such a nice accent. She lived about a mile from me. Her name was Ann S. We spent many hours together, mostly talking about our goats. She was the sweetest lady I ever met. She drank her tea and I my coffee. We spent many nights up together, when one of our does was in labor.

1982- Six weeks later, his doctor decided to do another biopsy of his vocal cords, to see if the chemo and radiation helped. His tumor was so large, it was blocking his airway, he quit breathing completely and the surgeon had to do an emergency tracheotomy (cutting a hole in his throat and inserting a tube) so he could breathe. They kept him in the hospital and removed his larynx (voice box). His surgery lasted 7 hrs, but he pulled through it again. His physician told me that he'd be lucky if he lived another 6 months, because he had an extremely aggressive carcinoma and he needed to be told about it soon.

I was there when the doctor told him, and like I suspected, he wouldn't accept it. I was now his nurse, because he wouldn't let the nurses touch him, and his translator because he could not write in english. I had to be at the hospital almost all day. He begged the doctor to do something, anything that might get rid of it. After a few weeks, the doctor ordered more chemotherapy to try to slow down the growth of the tumors. He lost so much weight, he went from 120 lbs. to 90 lbs.

Not only the cancer had become more aggressive, so did he. I weighed over 200 lbs and he was 10 times stronger than me. He couldn't talk anymore, so he wrote everything down in french of course.

When he went to the bars, they knew what his favorite drinks were so they'd get it ready as soon as he'd walk in. (double shot of whiskey and a bottle of beer).

He had a clipboard that the hospital gave him, and when he wanted to cuss at the kids and call them all the dirty names in the book, he'd write it down and if I didn't translate every word of it to the kids, he'd hit me over the head with the clipboard.

1983- A friend and I started a local goat club: Lake Erie Dairy Goat Association. We started out with a dozen or so members. We'd meet at different member's homes, 1st Sunday of each month. I had to avoid meeting here, I was worried about what kind of mood my husband would be in.

1983- I was the Ohio Dairy Goat Association's show chairman and Paula Y. was the secretary, for a big show that was held over the 4th of July weekend. We had a ball, at those weekend shows. We were going to all the shows within 200 miles from home, every weekend from mid-may through Labor Day weekend. As long as Gaston had his beer, he wouldn't behave too bad. He knew I had a lot of friends there. He loved all the rosettes and ribbons we were getting. If we won a champion or blue ribbons, he wanted to show that winner at the next show. He wasn't a good exhibitor but to avoid an argument, I'd let him show them. There was 2-3 different shows each weekend, depending how long the weekend was.

1983- Usual Holiday Seasons, except I could not take anymore. A couple days after Christmas, he started throwing things at me, because I wouldn't let him beat on my son. Jacques ran outside and I went hiding in the nursery. He followed me with a 2X4 with a nail at the end. He broke the window and was trying to reach me with it. I had a phone hidden in there and I called 911. The Sheriff office was too far, so they sent a Gibsonburg policewoman to handle it until they could get here.As she got out of her car, he dropped the 2X4 and headed toward her car. She was scared of him, because she was standing behind her car door. He slammed the door on her and she got in her car. He came back at me while she sat there and watched.

When the deputy sheriff arrived, he ran in the house. The deputy, policewoman and I followed him in. They tried to restrain him and he started throwing pieces of firewood at them. They couldn't cuff him so they called in for reinforcement. It took 5 deputies to put the cuffs on him. He spent 3 days in jail, went to court and told the judge (same one that married us) that my oldest daughter (17) and I were bigger than he was and that we beat him up all the time. The judge must have believed him, because he let him go free.

Was he mad when he got out of there. I had to put a restraining order on him. He moved in with some mutual friends. He swore to me that he would come and burn the house down when we were asleep. Chantal and I took turns watching the house. Every time his car would come down the road, we would get our shoes on and coats ready, in case he stopped. He would drive real slow in front of the house, I'm sure to scare us, and he did. I knew how insane he was.

He had an electronic voice machine to speak with and he was calling his family in Quebec and charging it to my phone bill. I had to change my number.

1984- Another tumor was found on his neck, right on top of his carotid artery. His doctor told him there was nothing else he could do for him. He'd already had enough radiation and chemotherapy wasn't working. He got so scared, he begged him to do something to get rid of it. The doctor ordered radiation therapy, but he had to be put in the hospital's nursing home, 40 miles from home. Again, I had to be there almost all day with him. He had a trachea (hole cut out in his throat so he could breathe) and it needed to be clean 4-5 times a day and he wouldn't let the nurses do it. They'd call me sometimes late at night to go do it.

Last time edited: September 19, 2000



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